Gratitude to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
Gratitude to the selfless, altruistic, and benevolent Master Lu!
At this moment, words fail me to express how the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door saved me, allowing someone burdened with such profound karmic obstacles like myself to receive blessings from Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu. Through practicing the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door for >2 years, my body gradually improved, and I essentially recovered to normal without relying on any steroid medications. This is truly a miracle!
I am a patient with myasthenia gravis (MG), a disease that may still be unfamiliar to many. Its incidence rate is only 10-20 per 100,000, and it is medically termed as the "undying cancer." However, it happened mercilessly to me, leaving me unable to face reality in utter despair and losing confidence in life. An incidental opportunity led me to enter Buddhism and come into contact with the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door. It is this extraordinary Dharma Door that changed my life. I am deeply grateful to the immensely compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu! With immense excitement, I share my true experience with everyone here.
1. A Severe Illness Transformed Me from a Non-believer to a Buddhist Follower
In March 2009, due to neglecting a prolonged cold, I inexplicably contracted a peculiar neurological disease (now known to be a karmic illness). My facial nerves were mostly paralyzed, rendering me unable to express emotions, speak, swallow, close my eyes, or move my neck, with constant danger looming. Doctors admitted me to the hospital for comprehensive examinations, including a lumbar puncture, which was agonizing. However, even after all the tests, the hospital failed to diagnose my condition. After nearly two weeks of being helpless, on the brink of despair and almost slipping into depression, I was urgently transferred to Huashan Hospital, Shanghai, China. Under expert consultation, I was promptly diagnosed with MG.
My mind went blank, and tears streamed down my face uncontrollably. The doctors informed me that this disease was incurable worldwide and could only be managed with steroids, with significant doses required in my case—up to 12 tablets of Prednisone daily. I knew the immense side effects of such treatment, but I had no other option.
No matter how much my family tried to console and comfort me, I couldn't listen. At that time, I was selfish, completely disregarding my family's feelings, shedding tears all day, feeling hopeless, trapped in a living hell, feeling like each day was worse than the last. Yet, considering my youth, I couldn't accept that there was no cure. Being driven almost to madness by the daily steroid intake, I chanced upon a lay Buddhist practitioner who said it was a karmic illness and that only through Buddhist practices could I be cured.
With skepticism, I tried it out, spending 2 days performing Buddhist rituals in a temple. Astonishingly, upon my return, my symptoms vanished, and both my family and I were overjoyed. Thus, I embraced Buddhism from then on. Now, I understand that surviving this ordeal must have been a guiding intervention from Guan Yin Bodhisattva, prompting me to diligently recite Buddhist scriptures and cultivate my mind. It was the Bodhisattva granting me a chance.
2. Recurrence of my condition led me to encounter the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, where miracles happened, altering the course of my life forever
Due to my recovery, my family quickly set up a Buddhist altar at home, enshrining a statue of Guan Yin Bodhisattva. We offered incense and water daily, reciting scriptures along with lay Buddhist practitioners. However, sometimes there were too many teachings, and I found myself reciting various Buddhist scriptures without a clear focus. I felt lost and confused. At that time, it was like the sensation of forgetting the pain once the wound healed—I thought that donating money for Buddhist activities would be sufficient, believing that the Bodhisattva would surely bless me.
One day in 2011, I had a dream. In the dream, I was scratched on the hand by a tiger and then beaten on the chest, causing me to spit blood. Upon waking, I was filled with fear and felt unwell (if only I had known about the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, I would have known what to do). Eventually, I decided to focus on reciting Buddhist scriptures. I made a vow in front of the Buddhist altar to recite a certain major Buddhist scripture 300 times within a year, praying for the Bodhisattva's blessings for my health.
When I had recited >30 times of that major Buddhist scripture, around the end of March 2012, my eyes suddenly swelled for a week, becoming sensitive to light. I visited an ophthalmologist and was prescribed eye drops for inflammation. However, after using two boxes of eye drops with no improvement, I went back to the hospital for further examination. It was then discovered that I was experiencing diplopia and strabismus, seeing double images of everything. The doctors were puzzled, and a few days later, the condition worsened. My eyes began to display a condition called ptosis, with my left eye bulging significantly while the other eye became smaller. I panicked, sensing that my old illness had relapsed. Rushing to the hospital's emergency department, I was informed by the doctors that MG had indeed recurred. I was dumbfounded, recalling vividly the onset of my first episode. What should I do?
In my frantic state, I remembered the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door and managed to contact a fellow Buddhist practitioner who had previously introduced me to the teachings. Following her guidance, I began to practice diligently. However, due to my unstable mindset and restless emotions, I was eager for a speedy recovery. Consequently, I didn't carefully study Master Lu's blog posts and books. Instead, I blindly recited Little Houses to repay karmic debts (reciting 4-6 sheets per day) and the Eighty-Eight Buddhas Great Repentance 7 times a day, neglecting the required daily recitations for myself. This led to a massive eruption of karmic obstacles, with the Little Houses unable to catch up, and I experienced continuous disturbing dreams.
In fact, this is what they call a last-minute resort. I regret not taking it seriously earlier and leaving such a precious Dharma Gem lying around at home unused. Everyone should learn from my mistake. This negligence led to a sudden worsening of my condition, with symptoms of weakness, unclear speech, and difficulty swallowing. I felt as if I had plummeted to rock bottom once again. However, this time, no matter what, I was determined to follow Master Lu diligently, starting with my studies and adhering to the Three Golden Buddhist Practices of the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door: making vows, reciting Buddhist scriptures, and performing life liberation, along with reciting Little Houses regularly while consistently listening to audio recordings by Master Lu.
Strangely, although I rarely used to dream, now every night brought a variety of dreams. It turned out I owed an overwhelming amount of karmic debts. I dared not be negligent. Whenever I had a dream, I vowed to repay Little Houses to my karmic creditors. Through the combination of dreams and Master Lu's audio recordings, I could find answers. Once, in a dream, a doctor dressed in white informed me that my right eye had a big spirit. I was lying down at the time and felt as though the doctor in white was treating my right eye. It was a bit painful, and I woke up shortly after, with the memory vivid and clear. I'm grateful for the compassionate blessings and guidance of Guan Yin Bodhisattva. After practicing for over a month, my vision gradually improved, and the double images diminished. I was ecstatic and gained immense confidence. Little Houses are truly miraculous!
In the program on May 20, 2012, I managed to reach Master Lu's phone. Master Lu sternly criticized me, sensing the severity of my karmic obstacles. He pointed out that my MG was the karmic retribution for my past negative actions, particularly emphasizing my involvement in killing. In just a few words, He pinpointed the root of the problem. I knew Master Lu was deeply concerned. With tears streaming down my face, I confessed my wrongdoings before Guan Yin Bodhisattva, acknowledging the many mistakes I had made. I am grateful for Master Lu's guidance. Without Him, I wouldn't have known the root cause of my illness and would have continued to mistakenly believe that I was a good person. I am truly ashamed.
Upon reflection, I realized several sins from my past:
1. I had committed severe acts of killing. Growing up, I was tasked with household chores, and whenever we bought groceries, I would purchase live fish, shrimp, or poultry for meals. Looking back, I was incredibly cruel, lacking any compassion. Each life ended in my hands, making me akin to an executioner, utterly ruthless. When I was under 20, I suffered from severe urticaria, causing intense itching and discomfort (now I understand it as the eruption of karmic obstacles resulting from my actions of killing). In a foolish attempt to treat my skin condition, I once even bought snakes from the market, exacerbating my sins to the extreme. I deeply regret the harm I inflicted upon those innocent creatures.
2. I have committed grave sins of speech. I often spoke recklessly, jokingly, and even used coarse language, accumulating heavy negative karma. After marriage, I was overly critical of my husband, freely blaming him for various things. However, he was very tolerant of me, which made me feel superior (now I feel deeply guilty). This contributed to the root of my illness.
3. I have indulged in sexual misconduct, showing no regard for relationships and not cherishing them. I have undergone two abortions, resulting in gynecological issues and painful menstruation as karmic retribution.
4. I harbored strong feelings of anger and hatred, with a desire for revenge. During times of dissatisfaction, I would curse others behind their backs, leading to periods of melancholy and depression for myself.
These are my karmic debts. Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door has enabled me to truly repent from my heart, teaching me how to repay debts and resolve grievances. Through the Three Golden Buddhist Practices—making vows, releasing animals, and reciting scriptures, as well as reciting Little Houses—I can eliminate karmic obstacles and repay debts. Previously, I was too anxious to recover quickly, eager for immediate results, which backfired. In reality, the efficacy of reciting Buddhist scriptures depends on sincerity. By reciting the Great Compassion Mantra 49 times, the Heart Sutra 49 times, the Amitabha Pure Land Rebirth Mantra 49 times, the Mantra to Untie Karmic Knots 49 times, the Xiao Zai Ji Xiang Shen Zhou 49 times, and the Eighty-Eight Buddhas Great Repentance 3 times daily, along with around 4 Little Houses each day, and consistently making vows to release animals every month, and observing a vegetarian diet for 10 days each month (now fully vegetarian), after persisting for 4 months, my double vision completely disappeared, my vision became clear, and my eyes returned to normal. It was truly wonderful!
However, I continued to struggle with speaking and swallowing issues. It was difficult for me to recite Buddhist scriptures, and my pronunciation was unclear. At this time, I successfully found a fellow practitioner online, explained my situation, and to my surprise, this fellow practitioner, Y, was very willing to help me. He encouraged and gave me confidence. The next day, he helped me call Master Lu's Totem hotline. I am very grateful for Y's compassion and warmth, which made me feel immensely grateful. On September 14, 2012, he assisted me in reaching out to Fish Boss, and fellow practitioners aided in releasing 920 black fish for me. Concurrently, I made a lifelong vow to embrace vegetarianism. Suddenly, the aroma of sandalwood incense permeated the air, creating an auspicious atmosphere, with Buddha's light illuminating the surroundings, evoking immense Dharma joy. Then, in October, they helped release another 10,000 fish. I am grateful to Y and his mother for their assistance.
This illness has been unpredictable, with its ups and downs. At times, it can bring a sense of depression. But now, having recordings and real-life cases shared by fellow practitioners gives me immense confidence. I must believe in Guan Yin Bodhisattva. It's as if my karmic obstacles are like to heat water, heating and stopping, never reaching a boiling point. Understanding this principle has brought peace to my mind. Despite feeling physical pain, I must persevere in reciting Buddhist scriptures and Little Houses. Enduring hardship is how we eliminate karma, and practicing Buddhism means enduring hardship. There's no avoiding it. This realization has changed my previously restless and anxious emotions. Friends notice a change in me, wondering why I speak less and seem more introverted and reserved. I tell them it's Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door that has changed me. I dare not speak recklessly; I must recite more Buddhist scriptures. So whenever I have the opportunity, I share Dharma materials with them. Over the past two years, I've recited around 2000 Little Houses. My health has improved significantly. During this period, I've encountered a traditional Chinese medicine immunomodulator who formulated prescriptions for me. It feels like a stroke of luck, almost like a Bodhisattva's arrangement, or else I wouldn't have found her.
After another 4 months or so, my speech became more forceful, my energy increased, and my pronunciation became much clearer. Swallowing also became mostly normal. This is a miracle that cannot be explained in the medical field. Doctors only tell me to take steroids, warning that stopping medication could rapidly worsen my condition and even endanger my life. But I firmly believe that Guan Yin Bodhisattva will save me, so I have no worries or fears. And the fact remains, to this day, I haven't taken a single steroid. Occasionally, when my condition worsens, I may take a Western medicine pill for relief, but it's not a major issue. This is the efficacy and wonder of Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, a remedy for escaping suffering. Little Houses can cure illness and save lives. It's real, not imaginary, and truly miraculous.
Not only has my severe MG improved significantly, but also my hair loss issue. Initially, my hair fell out in abundance, with patches as large as a one-yuan (CNY) coin, shedding in chunks. I understood clearly that it was activated karmic obstacles. So, I diligently recited Buddhist scriptures and Little Houses, and gradually, my hair started growing back. Now, it has returned to its original volume. I'm truly overjoyed. Additionally, my backache and menstrual pain problems have also been resolved. Can't this be considered the right Dharma? Being fully vegetarian for >2 years has visibly changed my blood. Previously, I suffered from anemia, with hemoglobin levels as low as 8 grams, but now, my levels have completely returned to normal, reaching as high as 13.5 grams. When I saw the lab reports, I was thrilled beyond belief; I couldn't trust my eyes.
I am grateful to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, grateful to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Master Lu, and grateful to the fellow practitioners who have helped me. I firmly believe that I will eventually achieve complete recovery. I will cherish this hard-won opportunity and vow to use my true experiences to convince more sentient beings with affinity to Buddha to encounter this Dharma Door and find liberation from suffering. I vow to transform people earnestly in the future, accumulate more merits and virtues, and help Master Lu propagate the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door.
3. Insights from Family Members Practicing Buddhism
Nowadays, both my husband and my mother are fellow practitioners alongside me. Over the past two years, they have also experienced the efficacy of the Dharma and are filled with immense Dharma joy.
My husband began practicing Buddhism in August 2012. In September of the same year, he encountered a traffic accident. While driving towards the entrance of an outer ring tunnel, his car was rear-ended just as he entered the tunnel. Upon inspection, it was revealed that several cars had collided due to the malfunctioning brakes of a large truck behind them. There was also a small truck in front of the vehicle involved in the accident. However, the driver of the small truck reacted swiftly, steering to the right, causing my husband's car to veer to the right and collide with the tunnel wall, shattering the rear windshield and severely deforming the exterior. Fortunately, he emerged unscathed, albeit shaken and drenched in cold sweat. The police officers handling the incident remarked on his good fortune, emphasizing that had the vehicle behind not swerved, the consequences could have been dire.
Upon hearing his account, I immediately recognized that the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva had shielded him from disaster, sparing him from harm. Truly, Guan Yin Bodhisattva is constantly protecting us. From that moment on, my husband became deeply convinced and committed to reciting Buddhist scriptures and Little Houses.
Strangely enough, shortly afterward, he was involved in 2 more rear-end collisions, each time emerging unharmed. He believes that Guan Yin Bodhisattva helped him avert a major disaster. Prior to practicing Buddhism, fortune tellers had warned him of potential accidents. Undoubtedly, the resolution of these 3 crises signifies the mitigation of a major disaster. We are immensely grateful to Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu. Without the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, we would not be where we are today.
Through releasing animals, making vows, and reciting Buddhist scriptures, one can change their own destiny. Destiny is in one's own hands. As long as one follows Master Lu's teachings diligently, the greatest beneficiary will be oneself.
My mother has been suffering from multiple myeloma for >3 years. Initially, doctors informed us that she had at most 3 years to live. Upon hearing this, we continuously persuaded her to believe in Buddhism, as we believed it was the only path to change her fate. However, my mother is strong-willed and has a volatile temper. At home, she is the dominant figure, and her children all respect her and dare not defy her. At the same time, she has a devout belief in Western religions, making it difficult for her to change. But when I played Master Lu's recordings for her, she was unexpectedly drawn to them. Master Lu's aura and energy are incredibly powerful. When I saw her showing some interest in learning, I quickly taught her how to recite Buddhist scriptures, and to my surprise, she agreed. We were overjoyed.
My mother said that Master Lu speaks reasonably, with a humorous tone and a penchant for metaphors, making His teachings easy to understand. She has also learned a lot about Buddhist knowledge from Him and exclaimed how amazing Master Lu is! Up to now, she has recited >1,000 Little Houses. Besides going to the hospital for routine check-ups, she listens to recordings, recites scriptures and Little Houses every day at home. She is very diligent. Every month, she sets aside 300 CNY for us to help her release animals, praying to Guan Yin Bodhisattva for her health and longevity, and to ward off calamities. Nowadays, every check-up shows that her various indicators are within normal ranges, and her condition is stable. She lives each day fulfilling, filled with Dharma joy.
Every time my mother calls to inquire about my health, she always reminds me, "Guan Yin Bodhisattva will bless you. Make sure to recite Buddhist scriptures diligently!" This sentence warms my heart because it shows how the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door has changed her. She remembers only Master Lu's words. We must endeavor to practice diligently.
Master Lu dedicates himself tirelessly every day, all for the purpose of enabling us to practice Buddhism, recite scriptures earnestly, sincerely repent, and seek the blessings of the Bodhisattvas to eliminate karmic obstacles. The path of practicing Buddhism is arduous; one must constantly guard against the temptations of greed, hatred, delusion, arrogance, and doubt. We will steadfastly continue our practice, and I hope my sharing can help everyone, especially those suffering from MG. If fortunate enough to encounter this Dharma Door, one will recover just like me. Though the journey may be difficult, the results are miraculous. We must believe and persevere. As long as we practice diligently and conduct ourselves well, the Bodhisattvas will surely bless us!
Gratitude to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
Gratitude to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Master Lu!
Buddhist practitioner: Jiao Xu (Shanghai, China)
Posted: 2015-03-12
Translator: Frank
Published: 2024-03-29
Source: Feedback from Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door Website Users, Master Lu's Blog.
Statement by translator
The story was translated from Chinese into English by meaning, not word by word. If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the true meaning of the Chinese version, I pray for forgiveness from the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, Dharma protectors and Master Jun Hong Lu.
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我的心灵之路——重症肌无力疾病奇迹康复
感恩南无大慈大悲救苦救难观世音菩萨！
感恩大慈大悲卢军宏台长！
此时此刻，我无言以表，是心灵法门救了我，让这么一个孽障如此深重的我可以得到观世音菩萨的加持和卢台长的加持，通过学修心灵法门两年多的时间，我的身体逐渐转好，在没有借助任何激素药物的情况下基本恢复了正常，这就是奇迹！
我是一名重症肌无力的患者，这个疾病的代名词也许对很多人来说还很陌生，发病率只有10-20/10万，医学上被称之为“不死的癌症”，可是偏偏就无情地发生在我的身上，在悲痛欲绝中让我无法面对现实，对人生从此失去了信心。一次偶然机会使我有缘入了佛门并且有缘接触到心灵法门，正是这如此殊胜的法门而改变了我的一生，在此非常感恩大慈大悲的观世音菩萨，感恩大慈大悲的卢台长！在此我怀着无比激动的心情与大家分享我的真实经历。
一、一场大病让我从无信仰者转变为佛教信仰者
2009年的3月，由于感冒较长时间没当回事，结果莫名其妙的得了神经系统的怪病（现在知道是因果病)，面部神经系统基本瘫痪了，哭笑不得，说话不能说，一口水也喝不进，吞咽，嘴巴，闭眼，颈部等全都无力，随时有危险。医生让我住院做了所有的检查，还做了腰穿刺，饱受痛苦，结果这家医院最终还是没能确诊是什么病。差不多半个月的时间，医生对我的病是束手无策，那时我快疯了，就差点没得抑郁症，接下来赶紧转院去了华山医院，在医院专家会诊下，马上确诊得了重症肌无力，我一下子脑子空白，痛哭流涕。医生告知这种病世界上都无法治好的，只有靠激素来维持，而且对于我来说每次用量很大，光激素强的松每天就12粒，我知道这样下去对身体副作用相当大，但是又没办法。
无论家人怎么开导和安慰都听不进，因为那时我只知道自己，我很自私，完全没有顾及家人的感受，整天以泪洗面，自暴自弃，发脾气，想轻生，感到绝望，感到自己活在了人间地狱，度日如年，生不如死的感觉与日剧增，反过来再想想我还年轻，难道真的无药可救了吗？经过每天激素用药把我弄傻了，后来无意间遇到通灵的一位居士说是业障病，只有做佛事才能好，我就半信半疑去了，在庙里做了两天的佛事后，回来居然身体就好了，那些肌无力的症状也消失了，我和家人都为之高兴，就这样从此信佛。现在我才明白其实能逃过这次劫难，一定是观世音菩萨点化，要我好好念经修心修行的，是菩萨给我的机会。
二、第二次的复发让我遇到了心灵法门，奇迹出现，从此改变我的一生
由于自己身体好了很快，家里就随之设了佛台，供奉了一尊观世音菩萨，每天上香供水的，念经就跟着居士们念，但有时候说法很多，这个经文好就念这个，那个咒好就念那个，念到后来自己都感到念得很乱，感觉很迷茫，那时也有点好了伤疤忘了疼的感觉，就以为做佛事捐款就可以了，菩萨一定会保佑的。
在2011年的一天做了个梦，梦见自己被老虎划伤了手，又被人打了胸口直吐鲜血，醒来后一阵后怕，感觉很不好（早知道心灵法门就知道该怎样做了呀）。最后想想还是念经吧，就在佛台前许愿一年里念300部某大经，求菩萨保佑我身体好。
可念到30多部的时候，也就是2012年的3月底，突然连着一个星期眼睛肿，怕光，当时我就去了眼科配了眼药水，说是发炎了，可是药水用了2盒还不见好转，接着又去了医院检查，发现这时看事物已经有了复视斜视，看出去的所有东西都是重影的，医生也不明白怎么回事，又过了几天眼睛的问题更加严重了，开始出现大小眼，左眼的眼球特别突出变大了，另一只眼变小了。这时我急了，有种预感是旧病复发了，赶紧去了医院急诊，医生告知重症肌无力复发了，这时我傻了，第一次发病情形历历在目，怎么办？
心急如焚之时想到了心灵法门，并且打电话联系到了之前结缘给我书籍的同修，在她的指点下开始修学起来。由于心态不稳，心情非常浮躁，一心想快些好起来，所以也没有仔细看台长博客和书籍，就一味地念小房子还债（每天念4—6张），忽略了功课的遍数，每天礼佛念7遍，致使孽障大爆发，小房子跟不上，梦境不断。
其实这就是所谓的临时抱佛脚，悔恨当初没有好好去看，把这么好的法宝就放在家里睡觉，大家要引以我为戒，就这样导致了病情突然加重，无力的症状随之而来，言语不清了，吞咽困难了，整个人一下子又像落到了冰点。但这次，不管怎样，我下定决心一定好好跟着台长学，从功课做起，按照心灵法门三大法宝，许愿、念经、放生，再加念小房子，坚持听录音。
说来奇怪，自己本来很少做梦，却变得每晚都是五花八门的梦境。原来自己欠的债太多太多，罪业深重。我丝毫不敢怠慢，只要梦见了，就许愿烧送小房子给要经者。我通过梦境和台长录音的结合，能够从中找到答案。有一次，梦境中出现一个穿白衣服的医生告诉我，我的右眼有大灵性，当时我平躺着，感觉穿白衣的医生在为我治疗右眼，有点疼，没一会就醒了，很清晰。感恩观世音菩萨慈悲加持和点化。在修了一个多月时，眼睛慢慢看清了事物，之前的重影没有那么厉害了，我万分激动，并给了我很大信心。小房子太神奇了！
在2012年的5月20号的节目中让我打通了台长的电话，电话里台长非常严厉地批评了我，感应到我的孽障非常深重，得了重症肌无力是造口业的果报，几句话当场就说到问题的所在。我知道是台长着急。我泪流满面在观世音菩萨面前忏悔，知道自己做错了很多。感恩台长对我的教诲，如果不是台长，自己都不知道自己的病根在哪，还一味地以为自己是好人，实在羞愧。反思自己过去有以下几宗罪：
1. 杀业很重，由于从小要帮着家里做家务，每次买菜都会买活鱼活虾活禽之类来当作盘中餐，现在想来自己太恶毒了，没有一点悲悯心，就是这么一条条生命断送在我的手里，简直就是个刽子手，残忍至极。在我20岁不到时得了荨麻疹，奇痒无比，很难受（如今知道是业障爆发，杀业的因果报），还突发奇想去市场买蛇给自己治疗皮肤病，更是罪最大恶极，真的太愚痴了。我对不起曾经被我残害过的众生。
2. 口业重，平时自己说话一直口无遮拦，乱说话，喜欢开玩笑，甚至说粗话，犯了很重的口业。婚后，对自己先生也是百般挑剔，随口可以指责他，但是他很包容我，使得我有种高高在上的感觉（现在心里很内疚），得病的根源。
3. 邪淫重，对感情无所谓，不珍惜，曾经流产2次，导致妇科不好、痛经的果报。
4. 瞋恨心重，报复心强。有不如意时曾在背后诅咒别人，使得自己会有一段时间伤感，抑郁。
这些就是我的罪业，心灵法门让我知道了真心忏悔，让我懂得了如何还债化解冤解，通过三大法宝——许愿、放生、念经，和念小房子可以消除业障和还债。之前，我太着急想着快些好，急于求成，适得其反。其实念经靠的是心诚。通过每天《大悲咒》49遍，《心经》49遍，《往生咒》49遍，《解结咒》49遍，《消灾吉祥神咒》49遍，《礼佛大忏悔文》3遍，小房子每天4张左右，许愿每月坚持放生，每月吃10天素（现已经全素）就这样，坚持到4个月时，双眼重影完全好了，看东西清晰了，两眼也正常了，真的太好了！
可是说话和吞咽的问题一直困扰着我，念经时很吃力，吐字发音含糊。这时在网上我顺利找到一位同修，把情况说了下，没想到这位Y同修非常愿意帮助我，并且给我鼓励和信心，第二天又帮忙打进台长图腾电话，我非常感恩Y同修的同体大悲精神，让我感到无比温暖。2012年9月14日这位师兄帮助我联系到了鱼老板，同修们帮助我放生了920条黑鱼，同时许愿终生吃全素。顿时一阵檀香味扑鼻而来，现场殊胜，佛光普照，非常法喜。接着10月份又帮忙放生1万条鱼，在此感恩Y同修和他的母亲。
对于我来说，此病一直反复无常，时好时坏，有时又会让我有些抑郁，可是现在有了录音和一个个活生生的同修分享案例，又会给到我很大的信心。一定要相信观世音菩萨。是我的业障太深，就像烧开水一样，烧烧停停永远不会开。明白这个道理，自己心态就平和了，尽管身体上感觉痛苦，但是一定要坚持每天念经，念小房子，吃苦就是消业，学佛就是吃苦，哪有不吃苦的？所以这也改变了我原来的浮躁不安的情绪。朋友都感觉我改变了，怎么变的不爱说话，性格变得内敛低调？我说是心灵法门改变了我，不敢乱说话，要多念经，所以有机会就结缘些资料给有缘的人。就这样两年多时间大概烧送2000张左右的小房子，身体恢复很多，其中不乏遇到一名中医免疫调理师，为我配方。太幸运了，感觉像是菩萨的安排，否则无法找到她。
又差不多4个多月后，说话有力了，中气足了，吐字清晰了很多，吞咽也基本正常了。这在医学界是无法解释的奇迹，根本不可能。医生只会跟我说一定要服用激素，不能停药，否则病情发展迅速会危及到生命，但是我坚信观世音菩萨一定会救我，所以我一点都不担心不害怕。而事实证明，迄今为止没有吃过一粒激素，只是有时病情反复时，会吃一粒西药缓解，并无大碍。这就是心灵法门的灵验和殊胜，是脱离苦海的良药，小房子可以治病救人，真实不虚，不可思议啊。
不光重症肌无力的疑难病好了很多，还有我脱发问题。当初大把大把的掉，掉最多的地方有1元硬币这么大，掉的一块一块的，我心里很明白，是孽障激活了。我就老实念经念小房子吧，慢慢的头发长了出来，现在又回到原来的发量了。真的太开心了。还有我的腰酸和痛经问题，现在也都解决了，能说这不是正法吗？全素至今2年多时间，明显改变我的血液，原来一直贫血，最低血色素只有8克，而现在完全恢复正常指标，最高到了13.5克。看到化验报告时，激动不已，真不敢相信我的眼睛。
感恩大慈大悲观世音菩萨，感恩大慈大悲卢台长，感恩帮助过我的同修们，我坚信自己一定会有彻底康复的一天。我会好好珍惜这来之不易的福分。希望可以用我的真实经历，让更多有缘众生能够闻此佛法，离苦得乐！发愿今后一定会好好度人，多做功德，帮助台长弘扬心灵法门。
三、家人学佛后的感悟
如今我先生和我母亲都是我的同修。2年下来他们也倍感法门的灵验，非常法喜。我先生在2012年8月份开始学修的，9月份时就发生了一起交通事故，在开往外环隧道口时，刚进隧道就被后面的车追尾。下来一看，是几辆车撞在了一起，原因由于后面的大型货车刹车失灵导致。在肇事车前面还有一辆小货车，可是当时小货车司机反应敏捷，向右打了方向盘，致使我先生车向右方撞了出去，后面挡风玻璃全部撞碎，外壳严重变形。庆幸的是他毫发无损，只是受到了惊吓，出了身冷汗。警察处理时都说他运气好，如果后方那辆车不打方向直接撞上，后果不堪设想，就好比三明治，被挤在中间。回来告诉我后，我马上知道是大慈大悲的观世音菩萨在为他挡灾，逃过一劫。观世音菩萨真的时时刻刻在保佑我们。从那一刻起先生开始深信不已，坚持念经、念小房子。说来奇怪，之后没多久，他又连续遇到2起追尾事故，每次人都没事。他说是观世音菩萨帮助他化解了一次大灾。以前没学佛前有算命的说他会出车祸。肯定是三次的劫化解了一次大灾。万分感恩观世音菩萨和卢台长，没有心灵法门就没有我们的今天。
通过放生，许愿，念经，可以改变自己的命运。命运是掌握在自己手里。只要好好跟着台长学，最大的受益者就是你自己。而我的母亲患多发性骨髓瘤三年多。当初医生告知我们最多三年的生命。我们知道后一直做她思想工作，让她信佛，唯有这条路可以改变。但是我母亲生性好强，脾气暴躁。在家里她独挡一面，子女们都很尊敬她，不敢违背她。同时她又笃信基督教，很难再改变。但是当我请了台长的录音给她时，她居然被吸引了。台长的气场能量太大了。看她有点心动要学的时候，赶紧教母亲怎样念经。她居然答应了。我们很激动。我母亲说，台长说的有道理，讲话幽默，喜欢打比喻，很容易懂，而且还学到了很多佛法知识，说台长太厉害了！我母亲至今为止小房子烧了1000多张，除了去医院例行检查，在家每天都会听录音，念经念小房子，很精进，每个月拿出300元，让我们帮助她放生，求观世音菩萨保佑母亲身体健康，消灾延寿。如今每次的各种指标的检查，都基本在正常范围内，病情也很稳定，每天过得很充实，法喜充满。每次来电话问我身体如何时，总会嘱咐我：“观世音菩萨会保佑你的，一定要好好念经！”就是这句话让我感到很暖心，是心灵法门改变了我母亲。只有台长的话她都记在心里，所以我们一定要好好修才是。
台长每天拼命地付出，为的就是让我们能够好好学佛念经，真心忏悔，求菩萨保佑消除孽障。学佛之路是艰难的，要时刻把握住自己的这颗心不被贪瞋痴慢疑所惑。我们会坚定不移的学修下去，我的分享希望能够帮到大家，特别是患有重症肌无力的人。如果有幸能遇到此法门，就会和我一样恢复得很好。虽然过程是艰难的，但是结果是不可思议的。一定要相信，要坚持，只要我们好好修，好好做人，菩萨一定会保佑我们！
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2015-03-12
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