The reason I practice Buddhism is because of my son. He was a severely autistic child. Before his birth, I always felt my life was going well. After his birth, my life was stuck.
When he was 2-3 years old, he still could not initiate speech. He was examined at the local hospital and diagnosed as autistic. I remember looking up information online. The more I read, the more I couldn't accept it. How come a good child needs a lifetime of rehabilitation and can't be cured? When he was born, everything was normal, completely in accordance with growth and development laws. In the developmental status column of the pediatric examination data book, it was often written: middle to upper. When he was 7-8 months old, he babbled and made sounds, was very active, liked to climb high and low, and was particularly energetic. From waking up in the morning he stayed active until the evening.
A long road of medical rehabilitation, special school, sensory therapy, and sand tray followed. Although the money was spent, the effect was minimal. He occasionally made simple sounds. However, he would not open his mouth if not practiced for a period of time. He forgot what we had taught him after a while. He has cognitive impairment, learning disabilities, and no imitation ability. His eyes can be right on ours for only a few seconds. He seemed to have problems all over his body to me. Sometimes he cried wildly for no reason. How pitiful he was! I could not help him. I did not know why he cried. I did not know how to coax him to calm down. It is mental torture to care for such a type of child. I once thought of leaving this world with him because it was too painful and difficult. I often asked myself why I had to give birth to such a child when I hadn't done anything bad in my life.
In the 6 months before I encountered the Dharma, I was especially helpless, desperate and anxious about the future. During that time, I was also traveling to a brain hospital. Initially, I thought my child's autism was a joke from heaven. He was >5 years old but had no language or cognition. Nevertheless, I didn't realize that what came along with it was even more unbearable. He had epilepsy and even had a shadow on his brain. The doctor said the shadow might be a tumor or a brain lesion. I was unable to accept the fact but could only tear silently and helplessly. I am grateful to the Bodhisattva! The final examination revealed that the shadow on his brain was just scar tissue.
One day, I received a message from a parent: “Dear, do you believe in Buddhism?” Since then, my child's destiny and mine have completely changed. Through studying Buddhism, I slowly found the answer that everything is karma.
When I was pregnant with my child, I ate fish soup almost every day to enhance nutrition. After giving birth, I stewed chicken and fish soups to promote breast milk secretion. When the child was one month old, according to Guangdong (southeast of China) customs, we invited guests to a large banquet. We served 60-70 tables of live fish and seafood to the guests. My mother worked on a pigeon farm when she was young. She helped slaughter pigeons to provide for restaurants every day. A few years ago, she opened a small farm. Every day, she killed animals for guests. It is all the result of our delusions, ignorance, and unknowledge of the law of karma. We have committed so many killings. The karma was retributed to my son. We hereby repent of the beings we have harmed, and we are really sorry. Killing karma is really a matter of retribution for three generations.
In January 2019, I began reciting the Little House. On September 19th of the lunar calendar, I made a vow to release 100,000 living creatures. In February 2020, I made a vow to become a full vegetarian for life.
Because the child's symptoms are particularly numerous, I have eliminated his karma generally. As a way of repaying his karmic creditors, I didn't focus on his specific symptoms. Now, let me briefly describe the changes in the child over the past 3 years:
1. Following my practice of Buddhism, he was able to mimic the teacher's movements to complete simple movements along with the song. This had never happened before.
2. Previously, he didn't want to turn off the water after taking a shower, which caused me headaches. He would play with the water for a long time until he had played enough. He would cry loudly if forced to leave. Suddenly one day when I had practiced Buddhism for 3 months, he turned off the water after showering by following our directions. At first, I thought it was strange how he was so well-behaved that day. I found that he was able to end up happily in the bath afterward.
3. Six months after I practiced Buddhism, he switched to another rehab >10 minutes from home. In the new rehab, he was able to pronounce simple syllables and personal nouns steadily in just 3 months, "Dad," "Mom," "Hello Auntie!" etc. In the following 3 months, one afternoon, his teacher sent me a short video. He imitated the teacher and said, "Mommy, I love you!" Watching this video, I cried and moved to tears. I waited for this “I love you” for 6 whole years. In this life, I did not expect to be able to hear such a wonderful language. Things for others’ children can simply be learned, but how much effort and cost do we have to pay for such a short few words? I believe that only those families with such a child at home can understand this hardship.
4. Since age 4, I have been scared and panicked whenever he had a fever. During the fever, he would appear briefly in seizure convulsions, roll his eyes, and instantly turn his lips purple. The doctor recommended sedative medication. The drug caused him to become inexplicably excited. As his excitement reached its peak, he became exhausted and fell asleep. As a result, we could not sleep when he was feverish. Before his fever went down, we dared not let him sleep because each time the convulsions attacked when he was sleepy. However, since 2019 when I began practicing Buddhism, he has not taken a single sedative pill. Only one time his fever was too high and rose too quickly. We took him to the hospital for observation. He fell asleep and did not have a seizure even when he was 38 degrees. Every time the child had a fever, I silently asked Guan Yin Bodhisattva to bless him and recover smoothly. Additionally, I vowed to recite Little Houses for his karmic creditors and release the fish that were being slaughtered. In this way, we have survived these 3 years. Guan Yin Bodhisattva is so compassionate! Citta Dharma Door is really effective and true.
Over the past 3 years, I have witnessed so many efficacious events and miracles. The child I miscarried has ascended. Whether big or small, I have passed calamities by making vows, reciting Buddhist scriptures, or releasing fish. I am grateful for the compassionate enlightenment I received through my dreams from the Bodhisattva.
Now my son is a capable, sunny and handsome boy. His language is getting richer and richer. He can sing children's songs, memorize poems and recite mantras. In addition to being a warm boy at home, he helps with chores around the house. Moreover, studying Buddhism has enabled us to meet many kind and patient teachers and coaches, so that my child can make gains in all major physical sports. Once again, I am grateful to the Bodhisattva for Her compassionate blessing on my child.
Finally, I would like to share my own feelings for the past 3 years. I know that my karmic obstacles are deep and heavy. At the beginning of my Buddhism study, my husband said that I was too addicted, my father-in-law advised that I was too young to be a vegetarian, and my mother told me to let it be, but I was firm in my choice. I even ate a bowl of white rice for every meal at my in-laws' house and felt very content. There was no material thing to exchange for my child's healthy growth. With my own perseverance and by reciting the Heart Sutra and the Mantra to Untie Karmic Knots to them, my husband, though disagreeing with my Buddhist studies, would help me to cook vegetarian dishes, my father-in-law would occasionally order a vegetarian dish for me, and my mother would invite me to go to release lives.
At the beginning, I was half-hearted about Buddhism. However, autism and epilepsy are medical problems, and Buddhism is the last straw I can grab. In the first year of practicing Buddhism, at special times of the year, the child cried a lot for no reason. This was a very challenging test for me. I would have a doubtful heart. I was really sorry for the Bodhisattva. Once, I hoped to look for so-called scientific intervention methods. It was really too ignorant and foolish. I had forgotten that the Master had said that the success of an event lies in destiny and not in ability. I had forgotten that the words "Virtue is not worthy of a position". If I don't accumulate virtue and blessings, how can I deserve a healthy child? I had forgotten, that once attached to affliction, the child would enter into a karmic destiny, and ultimately can not be liberated.
Heaven has given each of us, each day, 24 hours. The Bodhisattva gives each of us, the same Dharma Gems.
One's destiny lies in one's own choices. No matter what difficulties or obstacles you encounter, treat them as a test. You just have to hold on to your belief that I want to learn Buddhism and recite Buddhist scriptures. It was this belief that made me persevere at the beginning. Then, I can see my child's progress today, bit by bit. In the past 3 years, no matter when I encountered karma, situations, or demons, it was the wisdom of Master Lu's Dharma in Plain Terms that allowed me to overcome everything time and time again. So, we must learn more and read more about Dharma in Plain Terms.
My son was retributed in this life, the karmic obstacles on his body must be very heavy. Three feet of ice are not formed by a day's cold, so it is impossible to eliminate his karma in a short period. If one year is not enough, then two, three, or five years. The miracle lies in the accumulation of efforts every second and minute. Finally, quantitative changes reach qualitative changes. Now the days are very full, very happy. I am grateful to have met such an excellent Dharma!
If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the truth in the presentation, I pray for forgiveness from Namo Sakyamuni Buddha, Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, the Dharma protectors, and Master Jun Hong Lu. I would appreciate my fellow practitioners' critique and correction!
I, not my fellow practitioners, will be responsible for my own karma!
Presenter: Dharma Practitioner QingJingXin
Posted: 2023-05-28 Sunday at 17:28
From: Master Lu’s Blog
Translator: Frank
Published: 2023-09-08
STATEMENT BY TRANSLATOR
The story was translated from Chinese into English by meaning, not word by word. If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the true meaning of the Chinese version, I pray for forgiveness from Namo Sakyamuni Buddha, Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, the Dharma protectors, and Master Jun Hong Lu.
原文如下：
遇见佛法，自闭症孩子越来越阳光
感恩南无释迦牟尼佛
感恩南无大慈大悲救苦救难广大灵感观世音菩萨摩诃萨！
感恩十方三世一切诸佛菩萨！
感恩龙天护法菩萨！
感恩恩师慈父！
感恩师兄们！
我学佛的缘由是因为我的儿子，我的儿子是一个重度自闭症的孩子，在没有孩子之前，一直觉得自己的人生过得还不错，人生的卡点偏偏出现在孩子这里。
因为在孩子2岁多快3岁时仍不会主动说话，在当地医院检查，说是自闭症。记得当时上网查了很多资料，越看越无法接受，怎么好好的孩子就需要一生康复，无法治愈呢？孩子出生后一切正常，完全按照生长发育规律成长，记得在儿检资料本的发育状态栏还经常写着：中上。孩子7、8个月时该咿呀学语时也有发声，儿子还很好动，喜欢爬高爬低，精力特别旺盛，早上起来后一直活跃到晚上才消停下来。随后我们也开始了漫长的医学康复之路，上特校，上感统、上沙盘，这几年的努力，效果也是反反复复，钱花了不说，而且收效甚微，偶尔能发简单的音，但是不练一段时间就不说，教的东西过段时间又会忘掉，认知障碍，学习障碍，没有模仿能力，眼神能对视就几秒，很飘，感觉全身上下都是问题。而且有时候孩子无名的大哭，看着可怜可是自己却无能为力，不懂得他为什么哭，有时候怎么哄都不行。带着这样的孩子简直就是精神折磨。也曾经想过带着孩子离开这个人世间，觉得太苦了，太难了，常常自问此生没做什么恶事，怎么就摊上这么一个孩子呢？
在我遇见佛法前的半年，我特别的无助、绝望，对未来充满焦虑。那段期间还奔波在脑科医院。本身以为孩子是自闭症已经是上天跟我开的玩笑，5岁多了还没有语言，没有认知，却没想到随之而来的还有更让人承受不住的，就是孩子伴随着癫痫疾病，甚至脑部有阴影，医生当时诊断阴影部分可能是肿瘤、甚至可能是脑部病变。当时的自己从无法接受默默流泪非常无助。也感恩菩萨！最后的检查结果孩子脑部的阴影只是瘢痕组织。
当时，一位家长的一条信息：亲，您信佛吗？改变了我和孩子的命运。通过学习佛法，慢慢找到了答案，一切都是因果报应。
怀孩子的时候，几乎每天的鱼汤补充营养，生完孩子后各种炖鸡汤鱼汤给下奶，孩子满月时，广东这边的习俗就是大摆宴席请客，六七十桌的活鱼活海鲜，而且我的妈妈年轻时在鸽子场上班，每天需要帮忙宰杀鸽子提供给酒楼，前几年还开了一个小农庄，每天都是活物，都是我们的愚痴、无知，不懂因果，犯下了这么多的杀业，报在孩子的身上，在此向我们伤害过的众生忏悔，真的对不起。因果报应，杀业真的报三代。
我是在2019年1月份开始念经文组合的，并在农历9月19日许愿放生10万条活物，在2020年2月许愿终身吃全素。
因为孩子的症状特别多，我都是一直泛泛地念经消业，没有针对某些问题行为去念组合，现在简单说说三年来孩子的变化：
1、在初学念经没多久，发现孩子在机构里能跟着音乐老师模仿简单的动作，完成一首简单的歌曲动作，以前从来没有过。
2、在念经后的三个月内，之前让我们头疼的问题就是儿子洗澡不愿关水不愿离开，要一直玩水玩很久，基本每次强制性让他离开就大哭，玩够了才离开，突然有一天，洗完澡后让孩子关水，就这样安静地执行了。一开始也觉得奇怪，那天怎么这么乖，但是发现之后洗澡时都能愉快结束。
3、在念经后的半年，儿子换了新的机构，离家十多分钟的车程，儿子在短短三个月内能稳定地发简单的音节和人称名词，“爸爸”“妈妈”“啊姨好”等等，之后的三个月里，记得某一天的下午，老师发来一个短视频：视频里孩子模仿老师说：妈妈，我爱你！看着这视频里的孩子，我哭了，感动地哭了，等这一句我爱你，足足等了六年，一开始以为此生都无法听到这么美妙的语言，人家孩子简单就能学会的，我们得付出多少的努力和代价才能换取这么短短的几个字，我相信只有家里有这么一个孩子才能体会到这种艰难。
4、在学佛这三年间孩子偶尔会生病发烧，也许对于其他孩子是正常不过的事情，但是我儿子一发烧我就怕，我就慌，因为从孩子4岁开始，孩子发烧会出现短暂的大发作抽搐，只要经历过，永远忘不了那种恐惧，翻白眼、嘴唇瞬间全紫，而你只能在恐慌中不知所措，特别害怕失去这么个孩子，一旦发烧，医生都建议吃镇静药，别说药物有多大伤害，吃完药物首先让他莫名兴奋，嗨到极点后就累趴睡着了。看着孩子这样真的很可怜，孩子发烧的时候，烧不退下来我们不敢让他睡，因为每次的抽搐都是刚睡迷糊时发作的。在这么一个大前提下，从2019年学佛念经开始，孩子没有吃过一次镇静药，只是有一次发烧太高温度升得太快，我们就住院观察，但孩子在38度多时睡着也没有发作。孩子每一次发烧，我都默默求观世音菩萨妈妈保佑孩子可以平安顺利度过，许愿经文组合和放生刀下鱼。就这样我们平安走过了这三个年头，菩萨妈妈就是这么的慈悲！心灵法门真的灵验无比，真实不虚。
三年多来，见证了太多的灵验和神奇，不仅超度了自己流产的孩子，无论有一些大劫小劫，菩萨慈悲通过梦境点化，让我可以提前通过许愿、念经、放生去化解。
现在的儿子已经是一个能干、阳光的帅小伙，语言越来越丰富，能唱唱儿歌、背背诗词、能念一些小咒，在家也是妈妈的小暖男，帮忙干家务活，而且学佛让我们遇见很多善良有耐心的老师和教练，让孩子在各大体能运动都可以有所收获。再一次感恩菩萨慈悲加持孩子。
最后分享一下自己在三年多的感悟，我自知业障深重，所以在学佛初期，家里先生说我中毒太深，公公劝说太年轻了，让我别吃素，妈妈让我随缘，但是我坚定自己的选择，虽然没有获得支持，但是却没有太大的阻碍。甚至在婆家吃饭每顿吃一碗白饭我也觉得很知足，没有任何的物质可以换来孩子健康的成长。随着自己的坚持，而且不断帮助家人每天念7遍《心经》和解结咒，先生虽不认同我学佛，但是会帮忙做素菜，公公外出吃饭偶尔也会专门点一个素菜，而妈妈会邀约我去放生。
一开始自己学佛也是半信半疑，但是自闭症、癫痫都是医学难题，佛法就是我能抓住的最后一根救命稻草。在学佛第一年，在特别的时节，孩子无名哭闹得厉害，确实对自己内心很大的考验，会生出质疑的心，真的很对不起菩萨，还希望去寻找所谓科学的干预方法，真的太无知愚痴，我忘了，師父说过一件事情能不能成功在缘而不在于能，我忘了，德不配位这四个字，我们不去积德积福，怎么配拥有一个健康的孩子，我忘了，一旦执着孩子就是进入了这个业力的缘分当中，最终还是无法解脱。
上天给予我们每个人，每一天，都是24小时。菩萨给予我们每个人，也是一样的法宝。
人的命运，在于自己的选择。无论遇到什么困难，什么阻碍，当作是一个考验，您只要心中坚持自己的一个信念：我就是要学佛念经。当初就是这么一个信念让我坚持下来，看到孩子今天一点一滴的进步。在这三年多，无论遇到业力、对境、心魔来时，都是師父的白话佛法的智慧让我一次次战胜一切，所以一定要多学多看。
我知道，儿子此生受报，身上的业障肯定很重的，冰冻三尺非一日之寒，所以不可能短时间内就能消除，一年不行就两年，三年，五年，奇迹都是在于每天的每一分每一秒的努力坚持累积出来的，量变达到质变。现在的日子过得很充实，很欢喜。感恩遇见这么好的佛法！
我的分享结束了，分享中如有不如理不如法的地方，请南无释迦牟尼佛慈悲原谅，请南无大慈大悲观世音菩萨慈悲原谅，请十方三世一切诸佛菩萨和龙天护法菩萨慈悲原谅，请恩师慈悲原谅，请师兄们批评指正。我自己的业障自己背！不让师兄们背！
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2023年5月28日 周日 17:28
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